..its just been a really emotional week for me and i can't seem to shake it off. not hearing from him is hard enough but then to throw a rough week at work, and other things all mixed up just makes it feels like i'm crashing. i STILL cry every night at bedtime but now seem to cry at the drop of a hat. (like now watching Oprah and dammit i'm crying lol) UGH
i'm tired, i am not sleeping, but have a hard time getting myself out of bed and just wish i could not do anything. but i continue my life like i'm suppose to. i wish i could hear his voice when i need it but know that where he is, it's not possible. i miss him very much.